BABY UPDATE 9: We’re almost there Ging-Ging…

As of today, you’re almost 38 weeks-old. Soon (probably a week or 2 from now) you’ll be out to be with us! Holding you is something that I’ve been looking forward to for the longest time, but I’ll certainly miss the feel of your kicks, punches, hiccups, and steady heartbeat inside me. This makes me feel sad, but whenever I think of cooing, cuddling, and kisses coming from you, I can’t help but smile.

From the day you’re born, you will no longer be mine alone, and my body will no longer be your shelter. You’ll be out in the world to breathe and live on your own — and I mean no more placenta and umbilical cord! I can’t wait to witness how you’ll be, as you experience all the simple “first-times” in your life — the first time you see a flower, the first time you eat an apple, the first time you chase a cat, the first time you say “Mommy”. I want to be there when it all happens.

Your Daddy and I hope that we’ll be good enough parents for you. We’ll do our BESTest-BEST. I’ve been preparing everything that you will need, and that includes reading about Malunggay and Fenugreek! Your Daddy has been pacing back and forth while thinking about “co-sleeping” vs giving you your own sleeping space (a small night crib of some sort) to start with.

Since my 36th week, I’ve been having irregular cramps and sharp pains (sleeping at night has never been the same), but I try to be as calm as I can. They’re not real contractions yet, anyway — it’s just my body getting ready for the “D-day”. I just hope that when that day comes, I’ll still believe myself when I say, “The pain is all in the mind!”

We’re so excited to see you, our baby. We’re glad that the long wait is almost over :-)

A Letter On Valentine’s Day

It’s been almost a year since our life together started, and yes, this is our first Valentine’s Day as a married couple — but we’re neither planning an extravagant dinner date, nor checking out pricey gifts for each other at the mall. Instead, we’re busy preparing for a life with the best Valentine’s Day present we could ever have…our first-born (she’s coming less than a month from now!).

It’s funny how you once cradled an imaginary baby in your arms to practice holding Ging-Ging, and how you count every baby that we pass by, imagining that we’ll have our own soon. I always look forward to every night, when you kiss my belly to say good night to me and Ging-Ging as we lay down in bed to sleep. There are even times when she kicks you as we hug, as if to say that she doesn’t want to get pinned between mommy and daddy. We have a good laugh everytime she does that.

Thank you for getting up in the middle of the night to massage my feet when bad leg cramps wake me up. You give me the best foot massage when I needed it most. Thank you for giving up your pillows for me since I started hoarding pillows at night so I can breathe more easily. And do you even realize that you’re even more excited than I am when we visit the baby section at the mall, to check out strollers, cribs and all? Seeing your eyes glow when you feel my tummy as Ging-Ging seems to play underneath makes all my fears of being a first-time-mom go away. It’s because I feel that there’s a supportive Dad eagerly waiting for her to arrive.

For these and all the other things that you do everyday to make me feel loved and cared for, I thank you.

I was asked once which I’d prefer: an ideal husband, or the best father for my (soon-to-be) kids. I chose the latter. But then, I’m coming to realize that I’m so blessed that I seem to have both. Life hasn’t been perfect, but I would never trade what we have now for anything else.

I love you so much. Happy Valentine’s Day, Daddy.

Mommy
XOXO